my gift to Him .

       ahh , new yearr! it's crazy how fast time flys. i feel like just yesterday my mom was bringing me to school for my first day of 1st grade with Mrs. Clepper, and me being so excited to finally not be in kindergarten.. I now had a 'number.' .. that feels like yesterday. and now, I'm a freshman. And from what I've heard, everybody always says that this part of your life, seems like such a big deal, and it's gonna play such a big part in who you become, and everything is so important .. but they all say when they look back at highschool when there 30, it's really not at all. which is totally insane to think about now. whoa. well I just really want to live fully in this moment, and not really think about me when I'm thirty. cause that's a ways down the road. how about we just get through tomorrows biology lesson first? .. 

     even though growing up is part of the process of life, I'm just relying on Him. because I want to live as passionately as I can, and do what I was made to. because I'm not gonna leave this Earth, until I've completely fulfilled His purpose for my life. I heard an amazing quote today that made me get just so excited. "Your life is God's gift to you. What you do with it is your gift to God.' MAN. that just completely excites me. like whoa. I want my life to be everything He planned it to be, and I'm giving my life to Him as a gift. I'm not my own. I'm His child. His beloved. And I'm completely yielding myself to Him. Ohh He's so good.

He's everything.

Uhh wow. I just love this so much. I want to know Him on a deeper level. Thats my hearts cry. For this year. Just to know Him more. On a deeper, more intimate, personal level. Where I can realize this more. And just take myself deeper. This year is just gonna be so great, but different. And I want this kind of relationship with God. Like Paul had. Where I'm just constantly aware of HIS LOVE. Just ahh. How He loves us. I want to have the kind of understanding, that I can just be living my everyday life, in a state of peace, and contentment, because I know the kind of love my Father has for me. He strives after my heart. He goes after me, with such passion. To me that just blows my mind. That the God of the UNIVERSE just wants me, and my heart. Even with all my failures, and mistakes, and all the stupid things I do. He still goes after me with everything. Ohh Jesus. What a love. And He gives me the choice. Even though He could just have me on His own. He lets me decide. And I want to have that same kind of passion, for Him. Like a burning fire. That can't be put out. Cause I'm His beloved, and He is mine. Mmmm. The father that never lets me down. The best friend that doesn't forget stuff, or disappoint. The helper in every area of my life. The path which I walk on. The air that I breathe, and the beat of my heart. Alpha. Omega. BEGINNING AND END. Whoaw. My mind has a hard time understanding forever. FOREVER. His love never fails. Or ends. He's everything. Mmm. Wow.